Betegség - gyógyír

A betegség ami a testet támadja meg, könnyen kezelhető. Jóval bonyolultabb azonban az a rejtett métely, ami a szívünkbe fészkeli be magát. A titkos szenvedély, ami felemészti a lelkünket. és a kór, ami bárhogy tagadjuk is befolyásolja ítélŒképességünket. Hogy túlléljük, meg kell találnunk azt a vkit, aki képes meggyógyítani.

Michael is gone

My German boss left us yesterday. His two-year secondment just finished and now it is all gone. He was a really nice man, a good analyst and professional. A boss who appeared only when he needed you, but meanwhile he knew everything and realised if you had problems or you needed some help. He was really nice to everyone, he was always frank and just. He was the best boss i have ever seen or known.

A month ago i thought that i have plenty of time to talk with him and maybe even to work with him, but nothing like that happened. He hardly has been in Budapest. I realised only yesterday that for almost a year i didnt have any engagement with him. I just wanted to ask him if there was a particular reason for that, but i couldnt manage it.

Now i really understood that you need to grab the moment and take everything out of it. You shouldnt wait for the next appropriate moment, if there is a possibility you need to do it right then. There might not be an other opportunity at all.
I wept several times even in the office. I know it is part of life, people come and go. But always those leave whom you like the best. Why is it so?
I thought that i will have time. You feel ashamed when you didnt live the moments to the upmost level. Then why dont we just do things in this manner?

"Love the moment. Flowers grow out of dark moments. Therefore, each moment is vital. It affects the whole. Life is a succession of such moments and to live each, is to succeed."
Coelho

What drives you?

"Your life has to do with the agenda that has been set for you by you, by that part of you that we’ve come to call, in our language, your soul."

-- Neale Donald Walsch

Be aware of duty

"Nothing truly valuable arises from ambition or from a mere sense of duty; it stems rather from love and devotion towards men and towards objective things."

-- Albert Einstein

Many of us have been taught to do our duty. What does this imply to you? For me, ‘doing my duty’ means doing something I really don’t want to do. My heart’s not in it, and so the energy for the act isn’t there. I have to force every move. Usually, there’s underlying resentment. When this is the scenario, tasks may get done but there’s no gift to the world.

We do not truly serve the world if we give to others but neglect our own truth and our own needs. We need to give to ourselves as we give to others. IT’S NOT SELFISH TO LOOK AFTER OURSELVES -- IT’S ESSENTIAL!

Slow down

Soul cannot exist when our connections in life remain superficial. An experience of soul requires that we take time to be fully present to the details of our lives.

Explore what happens when you take the time to STOP and PAY ATTENTION. When we choose to slow down and really experience the qualities of our lives, we get a whole new perspective on what living’s all about.

"We must not allow the clock and the calendar to blind us to the fact that each moment of life is a miracle and mystery."

-- H. G. Wells

and winter arrived

a few days ago fall just came to hungary and now everyone is freezing and its snowing in the dark out there. it was only three weeks from now that leaves started to turn yellow, last week they were brown already, and now there is almost nothing on the trees.
this is how we change our skin during the years as well. you start growing like the seeds in springtime, then you flower in your summer but then you turn grey and old and you leave nothing more then ashes behind when your winter has come.
you think that the summer lasts forever but it is never so. winter takes away all the life from the trees. sometimes the change comes smoothly and winter comes step by step. but it might come suddenly as in this year. in october i was walking in a shirt, and i just took my leather jacket last week. before i wore really thin jacket, but now i cannot do without winter jacket.

you think you have all your life before you, but one day death comes and knocks on your door. it might be even tomorrow, or 20-60 years later. you cannot be prepared for that. it might come at any moment, like winter came all of a sudden. if it comes today what would you say? could you finish off your life right away? would you be able to leave the earth without missing something important? did you enjoy every moment of your life? did you grab every moment? did you fulfil your dreams? were you able to feel real joy and give joy to someone else?

there is beauty in the winter as well. especially in the one i had in sweden.
once you leave earth, there is beauty as well, i know. but you have a reason to be on earth for. do you fulfil your purpose of living?

Arról, hogy mikor van jogunk erőszakosan változtatni az élet helyzetein

Munkaköröd fáraszt, úgy érzed, máshol, más emberek között, másféle életfeltételek mellett igazibb erővel és megelégedéssel tudnál dolgozni. Az emberi együttélés kimerített, családod, kedvesed, barátaid terhedre vannak, s ösztökél a vágy, hogy új kapcsolatokat szerezzél. Lakásod minden zegét-zugát vakon ismered már, s reménykedsz, hogy az új, korszerűbb, kényelmesebb lakásban megtalálod tested kényelmét és lelked nyugalmát. Igen, a várost is untig ismered már, ahol születtél, nevelkedtél, férfivá serdültél. Igen, az országot is, mely hazád, megismerted, mint a bányász a tárnákat, ahol negyven, ötven éven át dolgozott; nemcsak vízszintesen, hanem függőlegesen ismered, minden veszélyével és mélységével. És hallottál idegen országokról, távoli világokról, ahol méltányosabbak az emberi együttélés feltételei. Kínoz a kétely, sürget és ösztökél a vágy, hogy elhagyjad munkahelyed, családod, kedveseid, városod, hazád, s erőszakos mozdulattal kiszakítsd magad mindabból, ami eddig életed környezete volt.

A kísértés órájában vizsgáld meg tapasztalataid, értelmed, jellemed és a világi dolgok igaz természetének ismeretében vizsgáld e vágyakat. Új emberek nem adhatnak neked semmit, ami alapjában megváltoztatná a világhoz való viszonyodat; mert csak te adhatsz magadnak valami elhatározót és lényegeset. Hasonlóképpen az új munkahelyen is munkás maradsz, és rajtad múlik, milyen erővel teremtsz magadnak az új helyzetben megfelelő munkalehetőségeket. Minden rajtad múlik. Éppen így az új városban, az idegen országban, ahol méltányosabbak az emberi együttélés feltételei, megtalálod idővel ugyanazt az emberi önzést, kapzsiságot, hiúságot és rosszakaratot, ami hazádban gyűlöletesnek tetszett; mert az emberi alaptermészet nem változik meg az országhatárokat jelző sorompók mögött. S ezenfelül még idegen is leszel; s idegennek lenni mindig annyi is, mint nyomoréknak lenni. És az emberi törvények egyike parancsolja, hogy mindig, feltétlenül maradj hűséges hazádhoz, még akkor is, ha ez a haza zsarnoki módon, méltánytalanul bánik el gyermekeivel.

Mikor van hát jogod erőszakosan változtatni életed körülményein, keretein és helyzetein? Semmi esetre sem akkor, ha unalmad szűntét, vágyaid kielégülését, bosszúd betelését reméled az ilyen elhatározástól. Maradj, ahová az élet állított, végezd kötelességed és töltsd meg lelked az igazsággal; többet az új világban sem kaphatsz, a déli szigeteken sem. De ha úgy tapasztalod egy napon, hogy munkád, életed környezete és feltételei nem egyeznek jellemeddel - akkor és csak akkor szánd el magad a változásra. És tudjad, hogy te minden változáson belül ugyanaz maradsz.

There is always worse

Whenever you think that you are in great shit, you know there are other people under even worse circumstances.

Arról, hogy mindennap tovább kell menned

S mert vándor vagy, minden nap tovább kell menned az úton, mely egyetlen célod, tehát lelked és a lelkedben elrejtett isteni tartalom megismerése felé vezet. Nem könnyű ez. Gondold csak meg, milyen sokfajta csábítás hívogat útközben, hogy megpihenj, félbeszakítsd utadat, mással törődjél! Szép nő áll az út mentén és bájos mosollyal int feléd. Tested és érzékeid felelnek e hívásra, szeretnél elvegyülni e szép testtel és átadni magad a kéj édes bódulatának. De tudnod kell, hogy a hiú és kéjes pillanatokat a teljes kietlenség és tanácstalanság követi. Mert lelked mást akar, s mikor tested megéteted egy másik test fülledt fűszerével, a lélek éhes és szomjas marad. Pénz, érdemrendek, címek, rangok akadnak utadba: de mit kezdesz mindezzel, ha a figyelem, fáradtság, idő, mely a világi elismerés ára, elvonja lelked legjobb erőit az isteni megismerésétől? Cimborák kurjongatnak az út mentén, s hívnak magukkal, kaján vállalkozásra biztatnak: mit nyerhetsz minden üzleten és szórakozáson, ha a játékasztal vagy a kocsmaasztal mellett vesztegelsz, s közben lelked kínzó sürgetéssel kérdi: "Miért lopod itt az időt? Mindez gyermekes és aljas. Tovább kell menned, hiszen dolgod van." Körülbelül így szól hozzád az élet, minden nap, minden pillanatban - megpihenni hív, kéjelegni, szórakozni, kielégülni a hiúságban és hatalomban. De mikor nem ez a dolgod! Vándor vagy és minden nap tovább kell menned. Nem tudhatod, meddig élsz, s egyáltalán lesz-e időd, eljutni utad végcéljához, lelked és az isteni megismeréséhez? Ezért menj minden nap tovább, sebes lábakkal és szegényen is. Mert vándor vagy.

Utad értelme nem a cél, hanem a vándorlás.

“Azt hiszed, házat építettél, s pályád büszke ormairól elégedetten szemlélheted a világot? Nem tudod, hogy örökké vándor maradsz, s minden, amit csinálsz, az úton haladó vándor mozdulata? Örökké városok, célok, életkorok és változások között haladsz, s ha megpihensz, nem pihensz biztosabban, sem tartósabban, mint a vándor, aki megtöttyed az útszéli almafa árnyékában egy fél órára útközben. Tudjad ezt, mikor terveket szövögetsz. Utad értelme nem a cél, hanem a vándorlás. Nem helyzetekben élsz, hanem útközben.”

(Márai Sándor: Füves könyv - Arról, hogy mindig útközben élsz)

tudom, ilyet én is írtam a caminon, de az ilyen gondolatok mindig jól jönnek :)

elfojtás

A múltkor egy beszélgetés során rájöttem arra,h újabb elfojtásaim vannak. Magvas gondolatok jöttek, melyeket érdemes megtartani máshol is, nemcsak a chat jegyzékében. Könnyezni kezdtem mikor elkezdtünk bezsélgetni egy adott dologról. És rögtön jött,h ha más lenne a helyzet, bennem is más dolgok lennének felszínen. épp ezért is elfojtás valsz, bár nem lehetek benne biztos.

mennyi mindent fojtunk el? miért jó az, ahelyett,h kiélnénk az érzéseinket, a fájdalmainkat, a boldogságunkat?
miért van az,h már a gyerekeket is arra tanítják,h az alapvető érzéseiket is elfojtsák?
ha boldog a kicsi, akkor leszidják,h ne nevessen annyira. ha pedig vmi fájdalom éri és elkezd sírni, akkor rögtön jön a csitítás,és h 'Ne sírj, ne legyél már ilyen gyenge!'
Ez máris elhinti a gyermekben, tudatalatt,h ha sír, akkor gyenge, nem igazi férfi, és a nőnek sem szabad sírnia, mert erősnek kell mutatkoznia.

egy idő után pedig az ilyen dolgok teljesen rögződnek és automatikusan működnek tudatalatt.
elnyomjuk érzéseinket tudatosan és vannak dolgok, amiket nem tudatosan nyomunk el, de tudattalanul elfojtjuk

és mindenki ezt teszi. a fájdalomtól való félelem erre késztet minket. de ha el akarjuk kerülni a fájdalmat, akkor a boldogságot is elkerüljük.

elfojtás miatt nem gondolsz egy általad szeretett emberre sokáig. néha azt veszed néha észre,h szinte emlékezteted magad arra,h rá is kéne gondolkodni.
amikor ott vagy az adott pillanatban, aminek ő nem része, akkor miért is gondolnál rá? hiszen az a feladatod,h élvezd az adott pillanatot, úgy tudod átérezni a létet igazán...

két dolgot kell megtanulnunk: (i) az elhárító mechanizmusokat észrevenni és tudatosítani az okát; és (ii) élvezni az adott pillanatot.

singing in the rain...

I started to sing in the office when i went for me tea and people looked at me with a strange look, thinking 'Are you crazy?'. But i am not at all. When we walked to a party i started to fly. And that was great. Just the scarf was missing so that it could have taken me to the sky...

When i leave all the conditioned thinking behind that is the best. I want to be like a children. In this meaning. Enjoy even the heavy rain. whatever is happening, enjoy it.

weather changes

Last weekend i wanted to go to the mountains to do some hiking. I long for the nature a lot. However, the weather was terrible the whole weekend covered with fog so i stayed in my parent's house and did some cooking. It was strange to think of the fact that a bit more then a month ago i walked in fog, heavy rain and wind. It didnt matter on the camino what weather it is, i just had to go and only because i felt like going in spite of the bad weather or my sorrows. But i am now back to the real life and if my ego, my rational part says i should stay i usually stay.

Nowadays i hardly went out to have a nice walk at the riverside as i used to. Due to the weather getting worse people have less mood to go out walking, rather just wishes to have a tea or wine with friends. There was always something like that, i hardly had time for myself, not even to have some relaxing jogging. When i am finally alone then i take a book (psychology related of course :), everything is related to that if is about people, at least for me).

Anyways, it appears that i dont wanna stay with myself. It might be that i am afraid of the things that could come up from my unconscious. But that is part of me, and sooner or later that will come up for sure.
While chatting some emotion came up generating some tears in my eyes. So, there might be something more.

It is better if the inner things come up bit by bit then if there is a big explosure when the pressure inside is too high due to supression used by us. So everyone should rather spend some time with him/herself and let out the pressure before it would be too late.

I am afraid

I am so much afraid of something that is so far away. There is some reason behind it, but still. It is meaningless to be afraid of something that is in the future.

I am scared that once i fulfil my dream No.1, i will be out of opportunities and will have nothing that i could deal with in the real life. Once i came back what would i do in my life? How will i get the place? How will i be settled down? Who is going to be the person next to me once? What is going to happen to me?

Why be scared of a hat? It might not be a hat, but god is on your side. He is there besides you always, he takes care of all those who need it and ask for it. Even when you are alone you are never lonely. There is someone besides you, always. He takes care of you. And always will.

Szőlőtőkék

Miért nem hagyjuk kibontakozni az emberek egyéniségét? Két különböző típusú szőlőtermesztési metódust láttam navarraban, közvetlenül egymás mellett megélt a két egymásnak teljesen ellentmondó módszer talán éppen azért, hogy példát mutasson számomra.
Az út egyik oldalán a földön feküdtek a szőlőtőkék, teljesen szabadon hagyták őket,h fejlődjenek, amerre csak akarnak. Egyáltalán nem metszették őket. A gyerekeket jó ennyire szabadjára engedni?

A másik oldalon teljesen lemetszett tőkék szegezték az utat, azok az emberek, akiket teljesen elnyomott a társadalom, és már nem mutathatják meg valódi énüket.
Melyik a jobb? Peti erre a kérdésre azt válaszolta,h gondoljak csak bele,h melyiket egyszerűbb leszedni. Valóban a kötözött, lemetszett tőkét egyszerűbb, gyorsabb, akár géppel leszüretelni. Ám én inkább a szőlő oldaláról akartam tekinteni a dolgot. Melyiknek jobb? Melyik élvezi jobban az életét? Az, amelyiket hagyják,h azt tegye, amit ő maga szeretne. Mégis mi emberek elnyomjuk a másikat, már nagyon kicsi korában megtanítjuk erre a gyermekeket.

mennyi mindent fojtunk el? miért jó az,h ahelyett,h kiélnénk az érzéseinket, a fájdalmainkat, a boldogságunkat, elfojtjuk az érzéseinket? miért van az,h már a gyerekeket arra tanítják,h az alapvető érzéseiket is elfojtsák? Ne sírj kislányom, ne legyél ilyen gyenge, mutasd meg,h erős lány vagy. Egy idő elteltével a berögzött minták működésbe indulnak. Már lassan észre se vesszük,h alkalmazzuk a felejtés gyógyszerét. vannak dolgok, amiket nem tudatosan nyomunk el, de tudattalanul elfojtjuk. a fájdalomtól való félelem erre késztet minket, embereket. De én szeretem érezni, hogy élek, legyen az boldogság vagy szenvedés. és szeretek énekelni az utcán v hangosan olvasni a könyvemből úgy,h mások is hallják és táncolni az utcán, még ha hülyének is néznek. Érezni akarom, amit érzek. És ha már

I am not the real in the real world

I am back to the real world for a while, exactly six weeks from now. It is just as if the other world would have been only a dream with all its participants. it is just as if i had anything on a dvd disc, i can put it in the recorder and watch the scene that i would like to. Everything is clear, i just have to close my eyes. But nowadays i hardly closed my eyes. Walking on the streets i still do not need to close my eyes. even in a company i start what some called flying or on a street crowded with people i start singing, and that is great. i do not care what they think, i just enjoy myself. i look up at the sunny sky when i walk to the office, have some sunbath, people might think that i am mad, but i dont care. i like the fool's role. But.

But in the office i cannot be like that. Somehow i leave the fool outside the door instead of taking it with me. Those who dare to call me during the day, know that i am completely different when i am sitting at my desk to what i really am. i just want to be myself. all day long. but how could i do that?

Slow down and take the time to really see.

"Do yourself a favor as you walk through life: Slow down and take the time to really see. Take a moment to see what is going on around you right now, right where you are. You may be missing something wonderful."

On the camino i met a German girl, called Veronika, who told me just the same thing. She was running on the beginning and got injured and had to stay in one place for a couple of days. Then she realised that she did things in the real life the same way: she wanted to get everything at once and in such a hurry she didnt receive anything, ie she didnt find job, boyfriend, couldnt finish off the school, etc.
When she was able to return to the way she started to do it much slower. Sje enjoyed walking much better then before. I realized that once you let go every thought of what you want to achieve and you just let yourself be what you are, then you'll become what you want to be.
When you look around yourself you can realize that one single moment is full of miracles. you do not need to pray for years to see a miracle, you should only open your eyes and there they are. The miracle of existence, the miracle of the sunshine, the miracle of love, etc.

Its not the labelling that matters.

How do you define yourself, to yourself and others? Are you first and foremost a husband/wife? A mother/father? A bus driver, dentist, musician ... ? A Christian, Moslem, Jew ...? A nag, joker, dreamer ...?

Be aware that any label puts limits on you. Today, experience how it feels to let go of the labels to rest in ‘I am.’ Feel the freedom, the spaciousness, the infinite potential of simply being.

Only people puts labels on anything. If you label a flower that it is a rose, you no longer enjoy the sight of it, you might not even look at it. I do not know the name of flowers and trees and constallations up above in the dark sky. And i do not bother about that. There used to be times when i wanted to learn that just to impress my future spouse. But it doesnt give a shit. It doesnt matter what you say, what matters are the feelings inside, which can be translated from that couple of eyes. You can say that you love someone, and lie into her eyes, but she will certainly feel if it is not true. At least if she can read behind the lines. Its not the labelling that matters. When i label that five stars and then the others, you cannot really enjoy the sight. But i'd rather just look up at the sky and enjoy the shiny light moving about for hours. of course if the wheather is fine.

But even if it is really cold, there are times when you forget about the cold and the time. When we went cross-country skiing really late at night it was shivering cold. however, when i caught sight of the aurora borealis (nothern light), i was just standing there amazed at the beauty of those waving hands. when it was over, i was almost frozen, my feet were for sure and later even in the house i was shivering from cold. My mates wanted to call for doctor. but right there the flow took me and i forgot about cold and time.

Chronos and Kairos

"Chronos is clocks, deadlines, watches, calendars, agendas, planners, schedules, beepers. Chronos is time at her worst. Chronos keeps track. ...Chronos is the world's time.
Kairos is transcendence, infinity, reverence, joy, passion, love, the Sacred. Kairos is intimacy with the Real. Kairos is time at her best. ...Kairos is Spirit's time. We exist in Chronos. We long for Kairos. That's our duality. Chronos requires speed so that it won't be wasted. Kairos requires space so that it might be savored.
We do in Chronos. In Kairos we're allowed to be ... It takes only a moment to cross over from Chronos into Kairos, but it does take a moment. All that Kairos asks is our willingness to stop running long enough to hear the music of the spheres."

-- Sarah Ban Breathnach

It is so strange to live in such a duality. During the day while i am working i need to keep deadlines, prepare schedules, keep track of all the things i am doing. But i dont like that. At nights I try to be with kairos and enjoy every moment, leave my thoughts as i did a bit more then a month ago. But it gets harder and harder sometimes to do so. Other times i just need to close my eyes and i can lift myself up, but usually the more i work, i spend with chronos, the harder it is to enjoy kairos. Couldnt it be easier? Just to be with kairos all the time? Or mostly with him?

Spend time with your soul

"Be mindful of how you approach time. Watching the clock is not the same as watching the sun rise."

-- Sophia Bedford-Pierce

What would your soul consider a waste of time?

To a soul, the only real time is right NOW. Not the future or the past. It lives in connecting deeply with the rich experience of each moment. Through awareness we can be in touch with our authentic self and how it perceives all of the energies and guidance around and within us.

"He who postpones the hour of living rightly is like the rustic who waits for the river to run out before he crosses."

-- Horace

mistakes

In this weekend i saw some movies as i wanted to be with my parents and they were sitting at the tv, of course as a usual family. the movies showed me the mistake that a lot of people make in their lives. The best example is this recent one: 'a room with view'.

In the beginning of the last century an aristocrat girl fell in love with the son of a journalist. However, her family, to be precise her aunt didnt allow this love and escaped her cousin. To meet her aunt's and the overall social expectations the girl used supression and later repression regarding the love she felt for that young boy and wanted to marry a gentleman of her class.
Later everyone recognized that she is not herself and just acts the way as it is required by his gentleman fiance. Luckily the inner emotions found some path towards her conscious part even before the wedding and she split up. Although she still didnt want to admit her feelings to herself, a frank conversation made her realize that she is in love. and there was a happy ending.

In life it doesnt always happen this way. Whatever emotion or desire we repress or supress (depending on whether your consious or unconscious part starts the action) it takes a lot of energy to keep it under surface. after a while some smell comes out of the bin or the bin explodes when the pressure is too high and then you have no escape, the undesired emotion is just there in front of you. But usually it happens in an unexpected timing: using the movie example you are already with married someone you never ever loved. Luckily back then long engagement periods were usual, now there are plenty of undesired marriages and later divorces (if the child is lucky enough, if there is any). I heard it so many times that a boy or man marries a girl just because they have been together so long, she deserves it already or that is what people expect from him or even worse. Great. Good luck.

You should marry the one who is perfectly for you. I dont mean that there is one single person with whom you can spend your entire life. there might be several ones who might be that one in that single moment. But you feel it right from the beginning that you could spend your entire life with that person. It might change later, if you change in completely different directions but there is someone who is your perfect fellow-walker on the path of life. There are people who doesnt wish you to be different or change you and just love you the way you are. There are people with whom you complement each other. Who has the same rhythm in life as you do. You should find that person.

If you walk your way with someone like that then you can enjoy life even better then when you just follow your own path alone. There are so many people who cannot enjoy being alone, they always feel lonely. But you are never alone. And until you cannot enjoy being alone you can hardly enjoy being with someone either. And it is worse sitting next to a lover and being lonely than being on your own.

Time is relative

A friend of mine left for london a month ago but sometimes it feels as if i havent talk to her for ages. Sometimes time goes by really fast, eg when you have a lot of work to do. While at other times time sticks in a place and you think that the current status is what have always surrounded you and nothing else has really happened. Everything else was just a dream and nothing more. camino appears to be a nice dream also. that happened in a different dimension, or a different life.

And yeah, camino is a small life but different from the real life. whatever you experience there has a meaning for you and provides an answer to questions in your life. But it is different from the real life. it is a dream, to which you can return at any time. you do not need to look at pictures, just close your eyes, think about some nice places and you will feel the same way as you did back then when you were walking the spanish roads. at least this is what happened to me. i was traveling with the tram packed with people, closed my eyes and imagined the walk after o'cebreiro and the stay at finisterre and i really felt the same emotions, didnt have any idea, i just flew with the ocean and the air. i reached the same energy level as i did back then. Amazing how small thing is enough to get in a much better stage of mind.

Slaughter-house

The other day i had dinner with some foreigners (i got in connection with expats living in budapest). One visitor of them is vet now but i realized that her previous working place was much worse. She admitted and her face told even more then her words. She used to work at a slaughter-house. Just imagine how nice it might be. she hardly did enjoy working there, obviously. And being a vet at a clinic now was such a good change for her, now she is really doing what she likes. And you can see on her face that it is really something that fills her soul with passion and love. This is the way every one of us should perform his work or should choose a work that provides it.

I had an association right in that moment when i heard about the slaughter-house.
My working place is really like a slaughter-house. we, employees are the pigs who always just get more fat /fatter??/ as the pigs are closed in a small place, cannot go out to the courtyard and so cannot run as much as would need to in order to stay fit. When the sheep was shorn well it will be killed down at the slaughter-house.
On the other hand we are just like slaves who just have to do what the master tells them to. and is not allowed to do anything else just fulfill the orders.
Employees of a multinational company are like woods and the company just wants to warm them up. The wood gives energy in form of light and heat but once it gave all that it can provide, what remains are only ashes which are taken to the bin. Once you are burnt down the company doesnt need you any longer.

And you know what? The very next day I just had to work in the meat industry including slaughter-houses.
Funny.

PhotoReading

PhotoReading takes advantage of the fact that all books are not equally valuable to you. There's tremendous variation in the information value of different books. Some books are a complete waste of your time. Other books will only contain one or two useful ideas that you'll remember -- the rest you'll quickly forget.

PhotoReading solves this dilemma by training you to use a nonlinear, multipass method of reading. You don't just blindly dive in and read books word by word. Instead you'll make multiple passes through each book, going deeper each time until you reach the point of diminishing returns. Sometimes you'll finish a book in 15 minutes (if that's all it takes to extract the ideas that are important to you), while other times you'll spend 2 hours with a book that's loaded with great ideas.

Keep in mind that after you learn PhotoReading, you can still read books linearly if you choose to. If you want to read a fictional story like Harry Potter, I'd recommend that you slow-read it to immerse yourself in the story and enjoy the surprises and plot twists as J.K. Rowling intended. But PhotoReading is great for nonfiction books where the goal is simply to extract the ideas that are important to you. In that case, the sooner you can extract and apply those ideas, the better.

Félig végzett munka

"Gyűlölöm a félig elvégzett dolgokat. Ha jó dolgot csinálsz, tedd
teljes szívvel, ha rosszat, ingadozás nélkül hagyj fel vele."

Bernard Gilpin

Nagyon igaza van. Mindent úgy érdemes csinálni,h igazán benne vagy, élvezed, that you are passionate about the thing that you do. If you dont feel passion in it, you shouldnt do it at all. that is it.

Take this advice. I should take it the upmost. Just take courage, and wait for the right time. that's it

Start living now

"Start living now. Stop saving the good china for that special occasion. Stop withholding your love until that special person materializes. Every day you are alive is a special occasion. Every minute, every breath, is a gift only for you."

He is right, but it is sometimes absolutely not easy. However, we should aim to do so.

A friend of mine told me a story. her grandaunt wears her diamond engagement ring everday no matter what she does. also for gardening or whatever. she says the same. it's not worth putting it somewhere only looking at it and never wear it.

A lot of people think the opposite way. I work long-long hours and earn money so that later i can go to have a nice vacation. but later he has no time to take off work comes again and he can never manage to get to the proposed place.

what is better enjoying life the upmost in each and every minute or postponing all the time until there will be no more occasion?

Te döntesz,h kétségbeesett vagy-e

A múltat jobbára a jelen alakítja. Ha az ember kiábrándult és
elkeseredett, sötétre színezett gondolkozása csak azokat az
eseményeket emeli ki a múltból, melyek igazolják mai elkeseredését.
Ám, ha igyekszik a tényeket tényekként kezelni; ha nem azt kutatja, mi
nem mehet, hanem azt, hogy mi mehet, ha a problémát kérdésként kezeli,
mely válaszra vár, nem pedig újabb sorscsapásként; ha a valóság
bonyolult közegéből azokat az elemeket lúgozza ki, melyek pozitív
tettekbe ötvözhetők - nos, akkor az emlékezete is segíteni fogja
ebben. A mélyből azt fogja felhozni a fényre, ami segíti, hogy helyt
tudjon állni a mában. Ilyen egyszerű ez. Ilyen egyszerű ez, mert az
emberi emlékezés szelektív: sugara mindig arra esik, ami segít
igazolni mai látásmódunk helyességét. Ha kétségbeesettek vagyunk, a
kétségbeesésünkben segít, ha a megoldásokat keressük, akkor a
megoldásokban.

Frank Crane

Saint Francis Javier

He overcame his fear of the sea and ships and solitude, because he was aware that his life had a meaning. While traveling through the Orient, he does not know that his steps will never be forgotten and that all he has planted will bear fruit; he is doing all this because this is his personal legend, the way he has chosen to lead his life.
Facing his fears, giving up everything on behalf of his dreams - may this inspire and serve as an example to me.

Rebuilding the world

A father was trying to read the newspaper,
but his little son kept pestering him. Finally, the
father grew tired of this and, tearing a page
from the newspaper - one that bore a map of
the world - he cut it into several pieces and
handed them to his son.
'Right, now you've got something to do.
I've given you a map of the world and I want to
see if you can put it back together correctly.'
He resumed his reading, knowing that the
task would keep the child occupied for the rest
of the day. However, a quarter of an hour later,
the boy returned with the map.
'Has your mother been teaching you
geography?' asked his father in astonishment.
'I don't even know what that is,' replied the
boy. 'But there was a photo of a man on the
other side of the page, so I put the man back
together and found I'd put the world back
together too.'

path of faith

Whenever man walks the path of faith with sincerity, he becomes capable of growing closer to God and capable of miracles.

(By the River Piedra I sat down and wept)

semmi sem téríthet le az útról

Sok áldozatot kell hozni az álmaidért. De sohase hagyd, hogy bármi letérítsen az útról. Mindig járd a saját utad, ne azt tedd, amit mások mondanak. senki sem élheti helyetted az életed, és nem is fogja, tanácsokat adnak arról,h hogyan kélne élned az életed, de a sajátjukban nem tudják meghozni a döntéseket, nem tudják, hogyan kéne élniük. Ne feledd,h ez a te utad.

Néha eltávolodtam már az utamtól, de rájöttem,h harcolni kell, meg kell hozni az áldozatokat. Ha elérted végül a célodat,akkor bőven kapsz majd minden jót, élvezni fogod az életet, jobban mint bármikor is gondoltad volna.
Jobb szenvedni az úton, melyen az álmod felé haladsz, mint az egyhangú mindennapokban szenvedni, lassan, folyamatosan meghalni. Nem hagyhatom,h a lelkem fuldokoljon, mint ahogy már néha éreztem bent az irodában. Nem fojthatom meg önmagam. Mert a végén már észre se fogom venni,h meghalt a lelkem, vagyis szenved, de már nem hangosan, nem ad több jelet. Odáig nem szabad eljutni.

Nem tudom pontosan,h mi is az én utam. de tudom,h vmi nagyon jót tartogat nekem az ég, csak még inkább el kell indulnom a számomra kijelölt úton. ha elkezdem követni a jeleket, akkor még egyértelműbb lesz az,h mit is kell tennem. Csak nem szabad elfelejteni cselekedni is.

Death is sitting by your side

My death is always sitting by my side, sitting in the chair right in front of me. She is saying, "I am going to kiss you," and I say to her, "Not now, please." But she says, "OK, not now - but pay attention and try to get the best of every moment because I am going to take you." And I say, "OK, thank you for giving me the most important advice in life - to live your moment fully."

Quotes from a great book

In order to find the treasure, you will have to follow the omens. God has prepared a path for everyone to follow. You just have to read the omens that he left for you.

You should listen to your heart because you will never again be able to keep it quiet. Even if you pretend not to have heard what it tells you, it will always be there inside you, repeating to you what you're thinking about life and about the world.
You will never be able to escape from your heart. So it's better to listen to what it has to say. That way, you'll never have to fear an unanticipated blow.

If a person is living out his Personal Legend, he knows everything he needs to know. There is only one thing that makes a dream impossible to achieve: the fear of failure.
If you fail during the way then you'll die in the midst of trying to realize your Personal Legend. That's a lot better than dying like millions of other people, who never even knew what their Personal Legend were. But dont worry. usually the threat of death makes people a lot more aware of their lives.

Singing in the rain

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bkEvy-9yVyQ

Doo-dloo-doo-doo-doo
Doo-dloo-doo-doo-doo-doo
Doo-dloo-doo-doo-doo-doo
Doo-dloo-doo-doo-doo-doo...

I'm singing in the rain
Just singing in the rain
What a glorious feelin'
I'm happy again
I'm laughing at clouds
So dark up above
The sun's in my heart
And I'm ready for love

Let the stormy clouds chase
Everyone from the place
Come on with the rain
I've a smile on my face
I walk down the lane
With a happy refrain
Just singin',
Singin' in the rain

Dancin' in the rain
Dee-ah dee-ah dee-ah
Dee-ah dee-ah dee-ah
I'm happy again!
I'm singin' and dancin' in the rain!

I'm dancin' and singin' in the rain...

[ADDITIONAL VERSE]
Why am I smiling
And why do I sing?
Why does September
Seem sunny as spring?
Why do I get up
Each morning and start?
Happy and head up
With joy in my heart
Why is each new task
A trifle to do?
Because I am living
A life full of you.